Saturday, June 22, 2019

Meaningful Little Things

Assalamualaikum

Aku rasa mesti korang salah sorang bawang rangers yang suka jadi silent dan active reader blog beautifulnara rotikaya dan blog gosip tak bertauliah lain. Aku pun, sama la juga.

Tapi aku bukan nak membawang gosip producer baru bercerai or selebriti chef curang. No no no. Jangan buat silap netizen sekalian. Zaman sekarang zaman buat duit dengan saman bawang bawang kurang cerdik. Kecuali kau takde duit nak saman la kan.

Ok, back to my story. Apa aku nak cerita sebelum melalut tadi adalah... kebelakangan ni banyak kes kes cerai curang poligami dan semua mak bapak kes rumahtangga yang sedih kalau kita baca. Ramai yang bagi sebab tak ada sefahaman, tak sehaluan dan tak boleh nak go on dah.

Pada pendapat aku, semua orang pernah lalui fasa mengenali pasangan kan. Tak kira la kau dah bercinta 7 keturunan pun, once kau dah kahwin dengan dia..it's like a whole new world to you and your partner.

Today, aku kurang sihat sebenarnya. Hidup aku sangat busy dan tertekan lately. Nak dijadikan cerita, aku cirit birit dah masuk 3 hari (on off) dan yesterday aku start sakit kepala sebab air dalam badan dah makin kurang la kan. Kemuncaknya adalah harini apabila aku pergi kerja aku tak dapat nak fokus. Dan bila aku dah habis waktu mengajar. Aku tidur tanpa sedar sekolah dah habis.

Balik sekolah, husband aku bawa aku lunch dan biarkan aku rest sementara dia settle hal kereta aku yang ada masalah takleh nak start. Waktu malam pulak dia kejut aku mandi dan bawa aku dinner. Then, dia ada kerja kena settle di hospital. Jadi dia minta aku tunggu kejap. Waktu aku baru nak terlelap, tiba tiba ada orang buka pintu kereta. Aku hampir hampir nak jolok mata dia dengan payung yang ada kat lantai. Nasib baik tak sempat.

"Yang, abg dah booking hotel. Syg gi check in ok. Lama lagi ni. Banyak kes lagi abg nak kena settle. Kesian syg. Nanti sakit kepala lagi teruk. Tapi hotel budget je la. Nah, kad. Keluarkan duit eh. Kena byr cash. OYO yang, eh (nama hotel)"

Aku dalam keadaan kepala tiga suku terus buat seperti yang diarahkan. Dekat sangat je hotel yang dia booking.  Mungkin sebab dia tahu aku takleh drive sangat waktu kepala tengah biol ni. Tak sampai 5 minit.

Korang mesti tengah cuba nak link apa kaitan artis dengan aku kan. Tak kan la aku ni artis kot. Memang tak la kan. Tapi, apa aku nak highlight adalah... benda benda kecik macam ni la yang kita kena ingat waktu kita ada selisih pendapat dengan pasangan.

Eh kak. dah dia husband mesti la kena jaga keselesaan anak isteri. Hotel budget je kot. So what.

Senah, yang suka menjawab... tak semua pasangan sedar tanggungjawab tu. Jadi bila pasangan korang buat benda tu... bersyukurlah... dan ingatlah bahawa itu cara seorang lelaki tunjuk kasih sayang pada isteri. Dia dengan rela hati pergi kerja pagi balik malam. Itu pun cara dia tunjuk kasih sayang.

So, jom lah kita muhasabah diri. Semoga kita sentiasa diredhai dan diberi kebahagiaan. dont put too much expectations on your partner. Dia manusia biasa je guys. Bukan Tony Stark.

Tony stark pun manusia biasa

Shush!shush! Senah. Tony Stark ada sut Iron Man dan dia kaya nak mampus, ok. Kerja nak menjawab je kau eh.

K bye.

Tu bukan pocong takde kepala. Tu laki aku tengah sembahyang. Jadi, kau kerja sampai jam 5.30 pagi sekalipun, jangan lupa sembahyang isyak. Baru sembahyang subuh

Monday, May 23, 2016

CRUSHING 22KG BEFORE 30

Hi people,

It's been awhile. I've been thinking quite often these past few weeks especially when I look at my bloated figure everyday in the mirror. I think I've got to change my lifestyle.

First, I have to admit. It has been an on and off process. I had started and achieved quite an astounding result in November 2015 where I lose almost 9 kg in 3 weeks. But then, I gained the same amount of weight that I had lost because.. well.. temptation.

So, I begin again. I hope this will last till I achieve my goal-48 kg. But, I'll aim for 63.5kg first. I weighed myself and I am 69.5kg. (earlier this year I was 62kg.)

My first step are:
1. ditch bad eating habits
2. drink plain water at least 2000 ml per day
3. inject exercises into everyday routine.

1. Ditching bad eating habits.
I have a lot of bad habits. My major problem would be I love sugar-laden drinks. I used to drink them 5 times a day; beginning with a cup of teh tarik at 7.00 am, iced milk tea at 09.00am, another iced milk tea at 11.00am, another at 01.00pm and a mug of hot 'milo' at 06.00 pm.
Secondly, I have a big appetite. I eat a plate of rice or fried mee at 07.00 am, oily snacks at 09.00, dessert at 11.00am, another plate of rice at 01.00pm and 08.00pm. If I were to count my daily calorie intake, I think it would reach up to 3000 kcal a day which exceeds the recommended amount for woman-2200 kcal



Teh Tarik

Iced milk tea

It took me about a month to ditch all these; starting with sweet drinks. The first week I tried to only drink 'teh tarik' and two glasses of iced tea. I also ate only a scoop of rice during lunch and dinner.  The second week I drank only 'teh tarik' and continued having a scoop of rice during lunch and dinner. The third week, I ditched 'teh tarik' all together and drank only plain water. 

After a month, I felt like I was ready to start the journey. But, I still doubted myself. So the first week (which was last week), I ate a low calorie breakfast, a scoop of rice during lunch and only fruits for dinner. It was hard. The temptation to return to old habits was strong and frequent too. I kept thinking "why do I have to go through this". I blamed on the birth control device that I wore (Implanon) which caused my hormone to go haywire. I blamed my busy work schedule. I blame this country for being too hot for me to go outside and exercise. 

Excuses. Excuses. Excuses.

But, hey! I made it. Today marked the first week that I totally practised clean eating. My day starts with two wholemeal bread (one tuna and the other is scrambled egg without milk). During lunch, I ate mostly protein and veggies, for example, grilled marinated chicken breast or grilled salmon and plain salad. For dinner, I stick to fruits such as grapes and green apple.

So, yeah. That's about it. It is not easy. I never expect it will but I know I have to do this. Pat on my back for surviving the first week. I still have 11 days untill the next weighing day. Fingers crossed. I hope I can scale down to 66kg by then. 

I'll try to keep this blog updated with the progress. I think weekly is better since daily is a bit too much for a beginner like me. So, see you in the next entry. Bye!

Friday, May 9, 2014

TEACHER, TEACHER...

Bismillahirahmanirrahim....


4 months ago, I wrote a recap of what happened in 2013 and then... hiatus.
Just like my diary.

Well, shall we start the 2nd entry for 2014?

Last time, I spoke about practicum. Alhamdulillah, it is over. I even got "highly competent" for one of the observations that I had with my cooperating teacher. Alhamdulillah.

4 months ago, I thought I couldn't survive the practicum phase. Just thinking about it made me feel exhausted. The tense, the works, the social contract etc.

Of course, there were a lot of not so fun stuff. But, the fun part really wiped away the unpleasant memories.
I still remember the last day I was at the school, my 2 Dedikasi students asked me to stay. I wish I could. But, no. My 'student' journey hasn't met its end. It's about too, though. 2 weeks time.

Dear students,

Just want you to know. I am honoured to be your teacher. Knowing all of you was really something. Teaching you taught me a lot of things. I'm sorry if I ever hurt your feeling and please know that I forgave yours.

Till we meet again someday. InsyaALlah. Study hard and achieve success coz you know you can!


Teacher Nik