Currently, i have this craze- to wear pretty cloth. I don't know why or for what. I just want to wear them.
However, i have this doubt- law. I want to put them on but i'm afraid if the law of islam forbids me to do so since there are certain boundary in clothing for muslimah.
So, I searched as many as possible, hadiths, Quran versuses and etc on the guidelines of dressing up as a muslimah.
In me, there are two elements fighting to empower my personality. I have this desire of wearing tudung labuh and looks beautiful at the same time. I also have this craze of wearing pretty cloth. So, i don't really know which one to be put on me.
For now, i have not found any Quran versuses or hadiths that say muslimah must wear tudung labuh to cover themselves.
In Surah Al-Ahzab (59) mentioned that:
"“Wahai Nabi, suruhlah isteri-isterimu dan anak-anak perempuanmu serta perempuan yang beriman, supaya melabuhkan pakaiannya bagi menutup seluruh tubuhnya (ketika mereka keluar), cara yang demikian lebih sesuai untuk mereka dikenal (sebagai perempuan yang baik-baik) maka dengan itu mereka tidak diganggu dan ingatlah Allah adalah Maha Pengampun, lagi Maha Mengasihani.”(Surah al-Ahzab, ayat 59).
So, it is clear. No doubt. In another extract of Quran Surah An-nur says:
“Dan hendaklah mereka (wanita) menutup belahan leher bajunya dengan tudung kepala mereka.”
However, I do understand that choosing the MOST perfect one is the best. That's why i am torn. i don't want to wear tudung bawal anymore since it do not fullfill the requirement at all. Shawl is another option. The cloth is thicker than Bawal and can cover the chest and my back well (if i wear it the right way).
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I even have this idea of wearing shawl with informal attire (blouse and trousers) and tudung labuh with formal attire such as baju kurung. However, is it correct for me to do so?
I am torn to the extend that I find myself as if trying to find excuses from fullfilling the best option. and I started to feel I am a munafik.
The coexistence of both desires wearies me. Is it wrong for me to wear something that i find it beautiful ?
(of course not the tight or body-wrapped cloth.)
I wore jeans to KL last week. It was my first time wearing jeans out of my residence and in public. Before this, i never wear one because I find it ugly and uncomfortable. Well, my first trial proved it. I felt uncomfortable, since the jeans was quite tight and i felt naked. From that day, I dont want to wear jeans and I prefer slacks more.
I don't want to wear something that against my religion but want something very pretty.
