Note to Me

why write if you have nothing to scribble?

why buy if you don't need it in your daily life?

why speak if your words doesn't do any good?

why listen if you know it's a bad thing?

simple conclusion: we like to do the opposite. face it or make a change?

High School Memory

Assalamualaikum

I was totally lost today. It seemed as if my world was shut off and I was left, blank. Then, I saw my best friend in the fb online list. So, I greeted her and then, I called her.

We recalled the memory we had together in Wataniah. It was funny coz I didn't remember most of the stories and she had to give me one hint after another to make me remember. Of course, she has an advantage cz she has my DIARY.

One of the sweetest memories was this

It was a hand-made card that I made for her and Fatimah. We had an issue back then. A friendship issue. So, I gave her a card of apology. Oops, sorry. cant tell u what's in there. hehe. friends' stuff.:P

I also remember we had this secret communication medium (which is not  a secret anymore cz I have revealed it here! LOL).

Funny! It was written as BM Rumusan but the note was not an educational note. We were "chatting"! Sadly, I forgot the actual subject for most of the secret codes. tsk. believe it or not, if you read all the cryptic writings, you won't have an idea of what we were talking about.haha

All the paper strips, card and photos- I keep it in this hand-made envelope:

Sammi cheng was sort of my nick name cz I adore Sammi Cheng.

When I told her that I have these here with me in UK, she was shocked. 

Imah: "you brought all that with you? To UK?"

Me: "Yeah.. why?"

Imah: "Why did you bring that with you?"

Me: "Nothing. Just as memory."

You know what, having these conversation with her makes me realise one more thing about myself.

I am such a sentimental type of person. And I only know that now.tsk. haha

HIGH SCHOOL LIFE WAS SUCH A BLISS

p/s: keeping a diary is a good habit, you know.

Perkahwinan itu Penyatuan

Assalamualaikum

Alhamdulillah, tak sangka dah dpt kakak ipar. Mungkin kemeriahan tak dapat dirasa sangat kerana jauh dari keluarga dan hal hal lain. tapi insyaAllah, akan cuba dikejar masa yang hilang untuk mengenali ahli keluarga yang baru ini.

Bagi ku, perkahwinan itu suatu penyatuan. Penyatuan antara dua manusia dan dua keluarga. harapnya akan terjadi penyatuan yang kukuh antara keluarga Syed Khanz dan keluarga kakak ipar, Suhada

Satu pengajaran yang bernilai dpt kuambil adalah:

Jangan cepat menghukum andai hanya mendapat maklumat dari satu sumber.
Jangan biarkan perasaan menguasai pemikiran apabila ingin membuat penilaian.

Sekian.:) Barakallahu lakuma wa barakah.

Nik Muhamad Shairi dan Suhada 

semoga bahagia ke anak cucu

p/s: abgku dulu hensem mcm won bin. tp sjak sjak balik Jepun ni. adoi..makin ke depan perutnya. huhu

yang ni bukan pengantin baru. tapi nak dibaharukan. :D

Saripah Syed Yusoff dan Azman Mohamed

Semoga bahagia ke cucu cicit

Pemimpin AJK Makanan itu

Assalamualaikum..

lawak pun ada tajuk blog kali ni. Saja tak nak guna perkataan ketua, bunyi macam diktator sangat. Pemimpin bunyi dia lebih give and take sikit.:)

Alhamdulillah (serius syukur), program kursus kahwin dah tamat. Pasal sijil tolak ketepi, tapi pengalaman dan ilmu tu yang aku (xpe kan guna aku kali ni?) rasa sangat lah berharga utk diri ini. Pengalaman disebut dahulu kerana itu yang aku cari dalam program ini iaitu pengalaman memimpin sebuah team memasak yang hebat. Ilmu tentang alam perkahwinan tu, insyaAllah, 2/4 dah byk diperolehi semasa bersekolah di SMKA Wataniah. (terima kasih Ummi, Baba dan Abuya)

 Perasaan, pendapat, kekuatan, improvement

PERASAAN
Aku tak tahu pendapat orang lain tentang aku sepanjang program tu, tapi dengan setulusnya aku katakan aku tak rasa tertekan negatif pun semasa lead team kecuali ade certain time apabila beberapa faktor memberi kesan kepada team memasak dan aku kesian dgn orang yang bekerja bersama aku terkesan sama.  selain dari itu, kalau aku kata tertekan, itu sebenarnya tekanan motivasi yang push aku untuk penuhi amanah dan aku sangat bahagia kerana aku suka memasak dan mencuci dan membersih.

Pada mulanya dan di pertengahan usaha memasak, aku agak takut takut.

1. Apabila order bahan, aku takut terguna duit yang diberikan lebih dari yang sepatutnya.
2. Di pertengahannya, aku takut kalau masakan yang team aku masak buat anak orang sakit.

Sangat bahagia juga apabila kawan kawan yang bekerja di bwh kepimpinan aku kali ni sangat lah baik dan ikhlas (insyaAllah). Harapnya tak ada seorang pun yang rasa dia tak menyumbang apa apa sepanjang usaha itu. Jgn rasa sebab korang bukan orang yang berjaga pukul 3 pagi untuk masak, korang tak menyumbang tapi sebenarnya usaha korang yang sedia bahan malam tu yang membolehkan semuanya berjalan lancar.

Penat? Penat memang penat. sebab tu tadi "pengsan" dari maghrib sampai la pukul 2.30 pagi tadi baru terbangun. :p tapi perasaan bahagia mendahului penat dengan 80 % bahagia 20 % penat.  Jadi harap terjawab persoalan kalau ada yang bertanya "nik, tak penat ke lepas keje..." ok, stop kat sini. Refleksi recalling ni ye, zack.

Jangan ada pun yang rasa dia tak menyumbang apa apa, ok? :)

PENDAPAT
Aku rasa semua orang perempuan dan lelaki patut rasa pengalaman jadi AJK makanan kerana pengalaman ini dapat bantu korang apabila korang nak buat majlis kecil kecilan sendiri nanti. Sepanjang penyediaan makanan tu, aku keep on terfikir yang pengalaman ini akan bagi manfaat apabila keluarga aku tak kira family sendiri, family bakal suami, family aku dan bakal suami nak buat majlis sendiri nanti eg, jemputan makan leisure, majlis ilmu di rumah ke, kesyukuran ke. betul x? lagi sampai perasaan kasih dan ukhuwah kalau masak sendiri. setuju ke tak setuju??

KEKUATAN
kekuatan kali sememangnya terletak pada pasukan. No more comment. Kalau ada rakaman yang dapat ulang tayang, korang akan faham apa yang aku cakap. (nak nangis je bila ingat balik. terharu). "ayein, aku bersyukur Allah adakan korang semua bersama aku. Hilang semua prasaan bimbang awal awal aritu" itulah luahan aku kepada Pengarah Program Kursus Kahwin, Plymouth.

YANG BOLEH DIPERBAIKI
Aku rasa semua ok sebab bagi orang yang first time (aku) lead team memasak, aku sentiasa inginkan team memasak macam ni.

Overall, aku rasa nak berdiri di Eye of Plymouth and cakap "korang, aku sayang korang! terima kasih banyak banyak." Nangis laju laju sambil taip. Wuwuwuwuwuuwwu T.T :) bahagia bahagia bahagia bahagia bahagia, infinity bahagia.

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I LOVE YOU KORANG!

Thank you Allah. You gave me such a wonderful group of friends:)

p/s: ok, amanah persatuan dah setel, ayuh la membaca amanah pelajar untuk esok:)

Lidah Yang Tajam Fikiran Yang Tumpul

Allisan kassaif qad tuaazi annas lau tafkir fi dimagh qalilah (kata kata ibarat pedang jika berfikiran stumpul. -translation. sumber pelajar jordan-

apa apa pun makna yang ingin saya bawa kat sini kata kata ibarat pedang.

Kita biasa dengar tentang satu nasihat yang berbunyi "kurangkan bercakap (bercakap hanya ikut keperluan) kerana ia mampu menyelamatkan byk perkara / membawa byk kebaikan"

Kadang kadang kata kata atau lidah kita mampu menghiris orang jika semasa kita "menghiris", kita berfikir dengan "pisau" yang tumpul.--------------->> paham dak ape yang cuba saya nyatakan di sini??arghh~~ tak reti nak bagi perumpamaan hebat hebat.huhu. maafkan saya.:p

Gurauan itu tidak salah. tidak sama sekali. bahkan jika kena cara nya boleh mengeratkan lagi hubungan. Mungkin ramai yang terlepas pandang, Begitu juga saya. Itu normal. Nobody is perfect. I am nobody= I am perfect.haha (perasan!) tiru ayat sudipkayu.

Oleh itu, "asahkan" dahulu fikiran sebelum "menghunus" kata kata.

p/s: pendek sahaja. sebab letih baru balik selepas dari pukul 9.30 pagi keluar.

Oh ya! SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL ADHA BUAT KELUARGA TERCINTA

wee~~ ini for my family yang jauh di perantauan.kekekkee...

_pandai tak anak abah buat banner raya sendiri sekarang?? hehe *macam la abah aku tahu kewujudan blog*

Maseh pada Raihan yang ajar!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA ABAH YANG DAH PANDAI MERINDUI ANAK PEREMPUANNYA YANG KASAR INI!!:D

abah semakin hari semakin romantik dengan anak sndiri.hahahha:D

p/s: tok sah dok tnye awat tangan cek bertongkat lalu terjungkit jari. kerana sesungguhnya susah nak amik gambaq guna fon baru.*jari pendek dan di tepi fon tiada butang untuk kamera*

Hidup Terasa Lebih Bermakna

Assalamualaikum

Random post about random feeling. Today, I went to my darlings house to settle one of the diet challenge stages.  It was tiring (and still). I had to walk to four places. First to Hunter Personnel, then took a bus to ****** and then to ******** and lastly took two buses to reach **** **** (my participants' details are confidential)

However, I feel energetic (thanks Allah, thanks herbalife, thanks coach, thanks sis) and enthusiastic. Because I really want to help people to reach their dream. My coach always says this to me "betulkan niat, even nik tak dapat apa apa sgt pn, tapi insyaAllah pahala dapat. we know how it suffers to be diffident cz of our appearance". Although I am not perfect, I am happy with the new me :)

Sometimes, people's words and expression hurt my feeling, though they don't mean to be. It even hurts to imagine that my darlings might go through this. However, I try to think positive "they don't mean it. take it as an advice and concern. you are just thinking too much:)"

It is not wrong at all to improve ourselves and our health (earlier). Ego won't benefit you much. :)

That's all. I can't do any of my homeworks coz my mind is saying "oh, my works (the coaching part) have finished".


p/s: I am actually realising one of my dreams; to help people in need!

Insomniac. Am I?

Assalamualaikum,

It has been two weeks. I have sleeping difficulties. I have tried to go to bed since 11.30 pm right after Isyak prayer. Urghh~~ why...Why must in summer, summer has short night and I have to suffer less hour for sleeping? *weep* Yes, I am used to sleeping late at night. But not in summer. I mean, it is summer we are talking about. For the past two weeks, I've been calling friends in Malaysia because of this (I called my family but voicemail greeted me. -----I know you might question about this. hehe). Then only I might sleep, at 2 o clock -_-'.

Okay, I really need to sleep. Let's google and find some solution.

Insomnia can be classified as transient, acute, or chronic.

1. Transient insomnia lasts for less than a week. It can be caused by another disorder, by changes in the sleep environment, by the timing of sleep, severe depression, or by stress. Its consequences - sleepiness and impaired psychomotor performance - are similar to those of sleep deprivation.^[9]
2. Acute insomnia is the inability to consistently sleep well for a period of less than a month.^[10]
3. Chronic insomnia lasts for longer than a month. It can be caused by another disorder, or it can be a primary disorder. Its effects can vary according to its causes. They might include muscular fatigue, hallucinations, and/or mental fatigue. Some people that live with this disorder see things as if they are happening in slow motion, wherein moving objects seem to blend together. Can cause double vision[9]

Okay, I am in the second group. Acute insomnia. Wow, it sounds like cute insomniac for me. XD Now that we know about the group, what are the causes??

Okay, there are a LOT! but I think it's this one:

Life events such as fear, stress, anxiety, emotional or mental tension, work problems, financial stress, birth of a child and bereavement.

Not birth of child, okay. Maybe because I think too much about getting a work. Seriously, I even dreamt about it. Pathetic. Short sleep + disturbance in dream. Even more pathetic when I decided to eat coz I thought I would not sleep. But then, right after finish eating, I started to feel sleepy. What thee.... (nasib baik yougurt je)

peh, scary gambar ni.

Refer HERE

dugh, medication to cure this??? No thanks, I have enough pills to be swallowed. okay, let's just pray then. bye...

p/s: jgn biarkan hidup anda diselubungi insomnia.

wuwuwuwuwu, any cure?

Aktiviti Ramadhan Rejab Shaaban

Assalamualaikum

Dekat dekat nak puasa ni, teringat pulak masa di rumah. Mami saya ni bukan la queen control tapi apa yang dia kata memang orang akan dengar dan tak berani nak bantah sebab dia ada karisma yang boleh tundukkan orang. Saya pun la kiranya.hehe. Sejak 2009 rasanya, mami wajibkan ke atas semua warga Syed Khanz ( geng geng keluarga kitorang  yang berada di Kelantan, Terengganu dan Pulau Pinang) supaya puasa Rejab Shaaban sementara tunggu Ramadhan. Tambah tambah time cuti sekolah semua balik rumah saya kat Kelantan dan puasa sama sama. Yang kecik kecik tak diwajibkan lagi, tapi digalakkan.

Saya selaku ahli Syed Khanz yang satu satunya pergi ke sekolah agama diamanahkan oleh mami untuk kendalikan beberapa benda. Salah satunya, beritahu kepada semua ahli bila start Rejab. Mami dan my sister, Nik Nur Azwanida, akan mesej Mak cik Mak cik dan suami suami yang berada di Terengganu dan Pulau Pinang. Jadi bermulalah journey kami sepanjang Rejab dan Shaaban. Sepanjang Rejab dan Shaaban tu, mami akan suruh saya buat tazkirah dekat cousin cousin, adik adik yang masih kecik, mak cik mak cik saya, serta mami sendiri selepas solat maghrib. Nervous weih, walaupun untuk keluarga sendiri. Siap buat research tu! Selain tazkirah, kitorang baca Yasin, Mathurat dan lain lain.

Yang amazingnya, cousin cousin dan adik adik yang kecik tu sangat kental. Dorang pun tak tinggal puasa rejab shaaban. Kalau ada pun dalam 5 hingga 6 hari je. Sebab my mami kata:
 "Siapa yang tinggal puasa Shaaban dan Rejab tu memang rugi la. Training nak puasa Ramadhan kan. Nanti Ramadhan, tak de lah lembik macam orang tak pernah puasa."
 lebih kurang macam tu la. Time Rejab dan Shaaban ni la mami train adik adik dan cousin cousin yang baru nak start semayang. Mami wajibkan dorang solat jemaah antara dorang dorang je. Sebab, bila buat ramai ramai budak budak akan lebih seronok dan eksaited nak buat lagi. Bijak kan my mami?:)

Bila dah sampai Ramadhan, memang dah biasa. Even lupa nak sahur pun, tak jadi masalah termasuklah si kecil si kecil. Time puasa, mami suruh yang besar besar (me, kakak, abang, mami dan abah) solat terawih kat Masjid Machang dan adik adik dok rumah je. Kadang kadang dorang pun ikut sekali. Pagi pagi plak lepas siapkan sahur untuk adik adik, mami akan kejutkan untuk pergi qiamulail kat masjid yang sama. Lepas tu sahur kat sana. Dalam pukul 7 baru balik rumah untuk siap siap pergi kerja.

Tima raya adalah paling gempak, sebab kami akan buat aktiviti keluarga macam, main bola jaring antara keluarga, pertandingan baju paling seragam dan macam macam la. Siap dengan hadiah hadiah lagi. Seronok!!! Kadang kadang kami geng geng meriah (mak cik mak cik, cousin cousin dan adik adik) buat plan senyap senyap pergi berkelah dan tinggalkan mami, abah. Bila balik petang mami dan abah pun kata "ooo, patut la rumah senyap, dapur tak berasap. rupanya puak puak dia pergi berkelah."Lepas tu arwah nenek pun akan kata "hola, demo tu tinggal aku sorang sorang." Semua orang ketawa dengar nenek cakap macam tu. hahahha! Rindu sangat. Saya sure raya tahun ni mesti tak meriah sebab tak de saya sebagai camera man dan videographer.kekekkee (prasan!)

tema raya tahun lepas, arabic style. Ni time malam raya, try out baju.:)

setiap hari inilah propotion ayam yang kami makan untuk 4 keluarga. (2 bakul sebenarnya)

rumah pertama yang kami akan beraya adalah rumah Kak Dah.:)

Ceronok kan?? :') Best kalau berkumpul ramai ramai semua geng geng meriah ni. Kalau tak sunyi je raya rumah saya.:)

Nanti kalau kakak dan abang abang saya kahwin, mesti dah lain. Sebab kami adik beradik dan cousin cousin yang selalu raya sama sama semua kecik kecik single single. Bak kata mak cik saya masa raya tahun lepas "Lepas ni, kak dah tak jadi kak kita la. Lepas ni dah jadi kak orang lain pulak dan tinggal kat tempat lain. Dia dah kena tolerate dengan orang lain untuk balik raya sama sama dengan kita." :')

Apa cerita raya tahun ni Syed Khanz members? hehe..

The 'Cold' Incident at the Freezing Bristol Station

Assalamualaikum,

Hari ini saya ingin berbahasa melayu pula.:) Semalam, saya berada di Stesen Bristol Temple Meads dari Sheffield. Saya nak balik ke Plymouth. Tapi train saya dari Bristol pukul 5.24 pagi. Masa tu pukul 12.12 pagi. Mula mula saya dok kat dalam tapi stesen nak tutup dah. Jadi kena la dok kat luar. Saya baring baring lepas tu duduk pasti meniarap meniarap atas kerusi panjang kat luar stesen sambil tengok youtube cerita Sydney White.

Tengok tengok je dah pukul 2 pagi. Kruk krak kruk krak, lapar pulak. Tapi kedai semua dah tutup. Tup tup, saya tak sedar pun ada satu teksi parking elok je depan saya dan ada 3 orang mabuk di tepi saya, berhampiran je. Tapi saya buat donno je la. Sebab dorang tak kacau saya dan saya pun tak kacau dorang. Lagipun, tempat lain dah penuh dan ada orang mabuk juga. Kemudian, ada kereta polis datang. Saya pelik la jugak. Apa hal polis datang sini. Tak kan kawan dorang dorang yang mabuk ni kot. Saya pun selamba pergi dekat driver tu tanya

"Excuse me sir, do you know any restaurants that still open near this station".
"What kind of restaurant?" Jawab pak cik berjambang. Saya syak dia orang orang Bangladesh, tak pon Arab dan sewaktu dengannya.
"Halal food, sir"
"Yeah, I know one. I can take you there after I settle with them three" Saya agak konfius la. Tapi biar je la kan.
"Are you a Muslim?" Saya pun mengangguk bangga.
" Assalamualaikum."
"Waalaikumussalam" jwb saya penuh ayu dan duduk semula di kerusi tadi dan tengok balik cerita. Saya agak agak, maybe 3 orang tu tak bayar tambang teksi la kot, sebab tu polis datang nak selesaikan benda tu. Tibe tibe seorang lelaki mabuk yang paling muda tu (lelaki mabuk A)  marah marah dekat polis tu. Fuih, berani dia marah polis tu. Saya pun "eh, apahal pulak buat drama tv kat sini ni". tapi saya masih boleh fokus terhadap kronologi filem yang saya tengah tengok tu.

Tibe tibe, saya nampak lelaki mabuk yang agak dewasa dari budak lelaki (lelaki mabuk B) tadi buat gerak mulut yang dapat saya faham sebagai "fuck you" dekat pemandu teksi tu. Banyak kali jugak la dia buat macam tu. Polis tu tak nampak sebab dia tengah tahan sabar deal dengan budak lelaki tu. Perbalahan tu berlangsung hampir sejam. Saya serius tak mampu nak bangun sebab terkejut dan rasa macam punggung melekat je dekat kerusi. Saya buat buat macam saya tengah pakai invisibile cloak dalam cerita Harry Potter dan moga dorang tak nampak saya.

TIBE TIBE

"Could you move a bit. I want to sit." tegur lelaki mabuk B. Alamak, dia nampak saya. Invisible cloak Harry Potter tak berfungsi di dunia realiti. Adoi. Saya dengan patuhnya kengsot je punggung ke hujung kerusi sekali. Lelaki mabuk A masih tengah marah marah dan bertengkar dengan polis tadi. Dia siap panggil polis tadi f*ck. Pak cik polis tidak mampu menahan sabar berdasarkan kemerahan telinganya. Dia pun kata yang dia nak hantar A ke jail. Budak tu boleh lagi melawan. Lelaki mabuk B mungkin agak sakit hati dengan situasi tu pn hentak kerusi, bangun dan cakap "could you just shut up!!!" Serius, time dia bangun, lalu depan saya berangin kot. menggeletar badanku.

Hampir 2 jam benda tu berlaku dan makin banyak kereta polis datang. Saya nampak lelaki mabuk A catat no plat teksi tu. Bila dah reda dan polis tengah ambil kenyataan driver dan pemabuk pemabuk, saya rasa punggung saya ringan, dan saya pun lari dari situ dan berdiri di depan pintu automatik (dah dimatikan). Agak jauh dari mereka. Bila dah hampir selesai, tiba tiba bas yang datang untuk ambil orang yang nak ke Airport Bristol langgar punggung teksi pak cik tadi. Kasihan... Malang sungguh nasib pak cik tu.

Lepas selesai dengan driver bas, pak cik tu pun pandu balik teksi dia. Fuh, lega. Nasib baik dia tak ingat pasal saya nak pergi beli makanan. Tibe tibe, fiuuuunnggggg!!! dia buat U turn. Alamak!!!! dia datang balik. Saya pun menghadap dinding dan buat buat baca something (padahal tak de ape nak dibaca pun). Jangan la dia nampak saya. Saya harap invisible cloak Harry Potter berfungsi time tu. Tapi.......tidak!!! Pak cik tu hon. Saya buat tak dengar dan konon tengah membaca dengan khusyuk. Dia pun panggil "Miss,". Aduh...tak leh elak. Saya berpaling dan dia panggih suruh gi dekat. "Yes?" jawab saya penuh sopan dan senyuman fake.
"Do you still want your food? I am happy to take you there."
Tapi saya la tak happy pak cik sebab pemabuk A dah ambik no teksi pak cik dan polis pun dah lepaskan dia lepas ambil keterangan dia dan lepas dia bersihkan teksi pakcik.
"no, it is ok. It's already 4. I need to pray and the station will be opened soon.Thanks anyway"

Fuhhhh..nasib baik. tapi nasib pak cik tu, tak tahu la. Dari ape yang saya curi dengar time berada kat situ. pemabuk A rupanya ludah pada pemandu tu semasa dalam teksi. Kemudia tumbuk cermin penghadang antara pemandu dan penumpang. Pak cik berhentikan teksi dan suruh pemabuk A keluar. tapi ke 3 3 dorang keluar dan tak puas  hati dengan pemandu tu. Dorang nak duit dorang. Tapi polis pulak sebelahkan pemandu. lagi la dorang marah.

Itu la pengalaman dengan pemabuk yang paling mengerikan sebab dorang siap dok sebelah saya lagi. Tapi I think it is interesting in one chapter of my life. Yes, i know i know. I am crazy to think like that. but, it is experience. :)

Sorry cerita boring ni panjang.:)

Pen off.

Bersih 2.0

Assalamualaikum

Gempar gempur orang dok cerita pasal bersih 9 Julai bersih 9 Julai. Sampai mak cik mak cik pun pum pang pum pang juga cakap pasal bersih. (tambahan je ni). Saya tak tahu mendalam sangat pasal bersih. Siapa pencetus, siapa pembangkang, siapa dan siapa. Tapi tahu la bahawa bersih ni pasal membersihkan politik dan etc ( kalau tak betul, tak taw la nak kata apa)

Mula mula ingatkan okay la kan, tak pe la. orang nak berhimpun je pun. bukan lancarkan misile ke ape. Lepas bersih tu, dok dengar pulak orang dok prung prang prung prang cerita pasal bersih kena strike dengan polis, polis serang, ramai cedera, ada mati.

Ingatkan, maybe luka luka kecil seperti adik saya jatuh basikal. tapi bila tengok video ni, serius dalam hati kata "EH, NI KAT PALESTINE KE??" tapi dengar bunyi orang cakap melayu. pandai pulak rakyat palestine cakap melayu. tengok lagi. "ALLAH! DAH MCM PENGUASA ISRAEL DOK CEPUK RAKYAT PALESTINE DAH"

Takut gak tengok. Malaysia dah bukan malaysia. Harap harap tak de ape ape yang teruk lagi la terjadi.
Jangan la bagi orang luar ambil kesempatan atas hal hal macam ni. porak peranda la semuanya.


p/s: insaf kejap. orang dok care pasal negara, saya dok care pasal hati. ini kita namakan pentingkan diri. astaghfirullah... jangan tiru ye adik adik. insyaAllah, kuat! Allah maha Adil. Kalau kita rasa tidak diadili dengan cara betul, Allah akan tegakkan keadilan. (nak tefon kak Teh la! rindu adik <3)

A Nice Person With Nice Dinner

Assalamualaikum

Just came back from a dinner with someone special. Our madam..:)
Had a lot of food stuffed into my stomach..errghhh~~~  herbalife pn xkn dpt selesaikan masalah ni.LOL..

Chicken Rice
Soto
Chocolate Cookies
Tiramisu Cake
Sambal Goreng
Bihun sup

Wah, mmg term kebuluran tu xpernah wujud dalam kamus budak budak Marjon.

who says we can't live 'WELL' in overseas? *squint*

Tiramisu Cake by Nur Azureen

Tapi one thing I want to praise myself for tonight performance. I was talking to madam..like a whole lot. Well, I'm not really good actually when it comes to conversing with adult. I have no 'modal' to talk... and it makes me feel so awkward...But tonight, I am not!:) *pat my back*

Thank you so much Madam Nori:)

Give Up

Assalamualaikum.

Sorry la. bkn tak nak buat yang hari ni pnya challenge.tp..Ya Allah bosannya nk jawab soalan2 y dia bagi tu. hoho. tula, cakap kencang kemain kan?:P

Mood sekarang adalah bosan dan rasa nak berbual dengan orang. tapi tak de orang nak berbual dengan saya. ok bye!

Never Knew (Mahabbah)

Assalamualaikum


I am so touched!
first of all, nak habaq mai..
tadi che' dah berjaya call family dan duration bercakap dah increase from 5 minutes to 30 minutes!!
terima kasih ya Allah.


kenapa excited sgt? sebab selalunye dan memang selama 9 tahun bergelar dewasa ni, setiap kali call rumah dari asrama or mane mane, duration berbual hanyalah 5 minit. record the least adalah 30 saat. paling lama adalah hari ini:) adik adik sekalian y tinggal di asrama, sila la hargai keluarga anda. balik la rumah selalu. sbb hanya dgn itu dpt mengeratkan hubungan dan rasa mahabbah dgn keluarga. jgn bila dah dok oversea cm akak ni, baru nak terhegeh hegeh buat benda tu semua.


Hari ini juga, bukak blog budak kecik comel y menggelarkan diri dia YUN CHAN KHALID. She writes an entry about me. so cutee....
seriously, have never across in my mind that someone would write an entry about me. just about me.:) thanks sis.
I am not celebrity or any famous babes y pandai menulis blog, berpakaian. I am just ordinary in person but insyaAllah extraordinary in personality:)

ini blog adik yun chan.

We know each other about last year rasanya. She added me in facebook. I have no idea dia siapa. At first, i tot she's my junior in high school, but then she said she does not know me and so do i.

i was quite pelik at that time. but, saya xkesah pn sbb i love making friends. then she posted on my wall with this cute quote "akak comel"

i was...."comel ke aku ni?haha" 

tapi honestly, i'm so happy. because i like when people love me.:)

it feels likeeeeee............................FIREWORK....mcm lagu Katty Perry tu.:)

dlm entry adik Yun chan tu kate dia tgk blog saya dah lain.

mungkin. dah x kebudak budakan. 

tapi jgn risau akan kebudak budakan lagi. 

i like simple things. masalahnya blogger pnya template kalau buat sendiri semua lebih2. 

xsuka.suka simple je. so pilih la y ni:)

mungkin sbb saya tukar url la kot, adik yun chan tulis entry ni. xdpt cari blog.

url blog y dlu mcm ni storery.blogspot 

dah tukar jadi

nnsz90.blogspot.com

anyway, adik Yun Chan, thanks for the ENTRY!

never knew a stranger, at first, would like me this much *blush*

this is what islam called MAHABBAH fillah:)

Some things do not change

Assalamualaikum

I know. It is late. It's 2.30 am in the morning and I'm still wide awake. I hardly get a sleep for the past a week.
Yeap..wondering too why does it happen.
But, hey..i try to sleep. like just now.
I closed my eyes. in my duvet but my body seems to ignore this..

Then suddenly i remember about my childhood memory. How innocent i was back then.
My world is only about my family, main pondok pondok, pejabat pejabat and friends.

I still remember in
In 1996, there was once, my house had a black out. My dad went to pasar malam. The others were bored. the TV was off. The radio..pufft..do we have one back then? haha..i dunt  think so.
Then, there was this blackboard where my parents bought it for us, their children, to scribble and use it academically. I stood in front of the blackboard and acted like a host. and i read a news written on my brother's textbook. Walah!! We enjoyed our tv and news time.
When my dad came home, we enjoyed the dish he bought from the night market. ahhh..heaven.:)

I also remember between that year (1996) until 2000, I learned what hardship was like. I had the experience where not all children have it. Collecting the tobacco's leaves under the hot scorching sun, running from home to field while catching my parents, who's on the motorcycle. Carrying the tobacco's leaves on my shoulder. Sleeping at the wakaf with oil lamp. Those were priceless.

I've touched it, plucked it, carried it.

it was amazing. epic life.

*courtesy of google

oh, I slept between the rows. The smell of the earth actually felt better than the comfy bed

(that's not me. I was much cuter:P) *courtesy of google*

In 2003, I was admitted to high school. Wow..new world.huhu..New friends. i thought everyone was as kampung as me.:P
I was erm...quite wrong. Everyone had their handphone, MP3, MP4 and what that small radio called...urrmm.....gosh..cant remember it.ah! WALKMAN.hehe..
and there was one time, my friends (not in my gang, we used to have a gang u know..and people said, i'm in the nerd gang..actually..not true..i am bubbly, ok), they were talking about the hit songs in the radio ranking.
They mentioned Era. I was like "huh?? Sjak bila Era Fazira cipta lagu??"
hahhaha..blur me..:P
but, believe me..I only knew what Radio Era is when I was in Form 2...kakakkaka..funny me.

In 2006, It was Ramadhan. I cooked for my family. I dont really remember what actually happened. I think it was something about my mom marah and back up my brother. and saya terasa..ye tuan puan.saya terasa coz sy mmg fikir sy xde wat slh pape. So, my face was gloomy. Saya x berbuka dgn my family. I took a laimun or limau in malay and I hid near a bush and ate that limau dengan tears rolling before went straight to the mosque...haha..merajuk..
Balik tu, my younger sis crita y my mom suruh dia cari saya. I was touched.:p

in 2007, I created a group. "Persatuan Anti-Couple".ok..I hope this is not a secret group. Coz, if it is..means I'm spilling a secret information. forgive me.:P
So, I had this vow..not a vow..but a principle. I said:
"i will never ever fall in love. I'm not gonna let my heart say 'gosh, i like him'.It will only happen when I'm married. " But, u know what, some people said, the thing that we said we wont do it is the thing we gonna do it. humm.perhaps it is true..In my case, at least. naive me.

Humm...bila sy teringat balik semua kisah kisah ni. Terasa diri sangat suci dan innocent. I've changed a lot. A whole lot. But, some things do not change such as, I still cry when people raise voice at me, I still cry if it is related to my family or friends. haha..But one thing for sure...i will try my best not to let people see me crying.haha...I will never ever...I will try to hold it and let it burst where no one will caught me in that situation..

I wish I am as innocent as I was.

*Courtesy of google*'

some things just cant be bought and do not change.

p/s: it is just a leisure entry about me missing the old me. sorry for the wordy entry. emo me:P

INGATAN KAU DAN AKU

Assalamualaikum.


Hari ni...I have nothing interesting to share. want to scribble something that i am thinking, regretting, and all the ings.


I realise that my memory is getting weaker. When i was in high school, i was able to remember sentences, messages and more in a second (ok..xde la sesaat,tapi kejap la kan) and quite large capacity..(capacity?pelik je bunyi)
ok.y pntg pnjg, byk dan kejap la kan. itu point dia. Kdg2, org tgh berbual dan lalu2 tepi saya, kalau sy dgar..fush!! kejap je cerebelum dan adik2 belum saya igt ape y dorang ckp.


Now, if someone asked me to pass a message to someone else, i need to quote and memorize it for a few times. Dulu jugak, ambik mase 2 hari utk hafal satu surah. tapi sekarang. 2 hari tu, utk hafal balik ayat2 surah y dihafal pn x berjaya.


Pathetic kan?
And tadi..after Asar prayer, i was flipping through Quran..and I came across this verse. 'Iza ja akal munafiqu.....'. It seemed familiar. I stopped reading it and closed my Quran and i tried to recite it without looking at the page. I reopen my Quran and the verse that i've recited was exactly what is written in that page. i read the Surah (name, title dan sama waktu dgnnya) ...................AL-MUNAFIQUN.


Then, I said to myself:
'Aku pernah hafal ke Surah ni?'
So, i read the whole Surah and i realised, the verses were familiar to me. Quite shocking not to recognize it.
I took a pen and made a list of the Surah that I have memorized. Sadly, I have forgotten almost half of it. Hanya beberapa je y igt penuh.


Saya pn cuba bandingkan. Apa y bezanya zaman sekolah dulu dgn skrg sampai mcm tu sekali ingatan sy lemah? I made a list again. (berdasarkan checklist y di google) KAT SINI dan kebanyakannya y sy rasa releven


Masa sekolah menengah DULU:


1- Tak makan benda y berajinamoto byk (org tua kata ajinamoto lemahkan ingatan, so, sy x makan sgt bnda2 berajinamoto)
2- x dengar sgt muzik 

dlu kalau kengkawan dk bincang2

"eh eh..ko dengar x Era smlm?? Lagu Misha Omar y baru dah klua. Sedap gilerrr."

sy senyum je. sbb dlm otak dk pk "Era Fazira ade buat lagu utk Misha Omar ke?" (aku x tahu pn Era tu adalah saluran radiooooo!!)

3- x tgk sgt movie. (tp, tgk gak:p)
4- x tahu bab2 bercinta.
5- x pk pasal lelaki (sampai bkhayal cane muka lelaki idaman etc etc)
6- x pk pasal cinta
7- x pernah dengar org ckp sy suka awk atau seangkatan dgnnya. (pernah sekali. masa exam SPM. pastu demam 6 hari)








SEKARANG:
1-bukan setakat benda berajinamoto, dgn ajinamoto sekali sy bedal (ok, tipu je.) Maksudnya, dlm setiap masakan wajib ade.sbb mak kate, no ajinamoto, no umph! tp, sjak sjak dk UK ni, dah x guna ajinamoto (sbb xde)


2- walaupun still x minat sgt muzik tp tahu pasal lagu2 y org slalu dga.


3- bukan stakat muvi omputis, jepun, korea, vietnam, china, omputis sume di hujung ibu jari kaki. tmbh2 movie skang x mcm dulu. dulu, omputih je y byk sensored2 tp skang jepun, korea china pn x nak kalah. semua masti ada scene2 camtu.


4- bercinta?? hummp...di hujung jari. google je. blambak. tips2 mengorat sume ada. mls story pnjg2. NEXT!


5- lelaki?? yang ni pon..hummmppp....di hujung otak. hari hari pk. ok, tipu. time dgn kwn2, x terfikir pn. jadi senantiasalah berada dgn kwn anda.


6- cinta? letih la nk ckp. sjak2 dah masuk 20 ni. faham2 la. fighting je la y boleh dibuat.


7-suka awk, tersuka, terkenan. semua ada. nyonyonyooo..perasan lawa kan..sy pn rasa cmtu. (bagi la can sket.)
y peliknya,  kebanyakannya x pernah jumpa. ceh..kebanyakan..heheh..tipu je..xde la kebanyakan.kebanyakan y dimaksudkan adalah dlm lingkungan x lebih dari 5..kekekkeke.

fahrin ahmad ckp sy suka awk?

sy dah biasa dh. (tp melalui muvi la)

*courtesy of google*

Walaupun Goo Jun Pyo dah luruskan rmbut dia..

sy still x layan.

*courtesy of google*

dulu suka tgk cite edison cececechen jadi pontianak tu

tapi time scene suasana senyap, edison dan heroin dok

 'kau pndg aku, aku pndg kau.oh aku berdebar. ko nak kiss aku ke'

budak-budak pmpuan sekolah sy y berjurus terus jerit2 dan saling tutup mata masing2. comel kan?

sekali lagi *courtesy of google*

KESIMPULANNYA, INGATAN SY LEMAH KERANA BENDA LAGHA, LALAI, TIDAK BERFAEDAH DAN SEANGKATAN DGNNYA. ANDA BAGAIMANA??

p/s: wei zack, kau tahu x y kalau kau lupa surah hafazan, ko akan dpt dosa. hengkau tahu ke idok ni???

Profession Bengkang Roti

Assalamualaikum.

yesterday was a fun!
I had fun baking bengkang roti with my housemates and also our permanent visitor, Nurhana.
We took videos and i'll soon put up the cooking recipe video.

Cograts to Aisyah for her delicious bengkang and credit to Kak Ana for the recipe.
There's an interesting story about this bengkang roti..where we think, we might laugh together about this, someday^^.

After we melicinkan nasi goreng Ayein, it's time for the bengkang roti utk menemui ajal mereka.
Kami bersila like a proper lady with sweet smile trying to control the face of a hungry people.

The bengkang roti was seriously not kiddingly delicious!
until the last 5 pieces of them..

Ummi said:

"Selalunya, yang last2 ni, kita bagi kat Aisyah utk habiskan."
 (biasalah..kita mestilah mendahulukan saudara kita kan??:)
"Nah aisyah...suami soleh menanti"

Aisyah:
"eh, ape plak..xpe la.korang makan la pulak."

sesi mengikut sunnah rasulullah berlarutan selama 3 minit apabila masing2 bertekad ingin memperoleh pahala lebih dgn mendahulukan saudara mereka..
(lupa hadis mana..haish..ana khilaf..ehem!)

selepas itu,
saya pn berkata:
"jgn gaduh.jgn gaduh comrade2 ku (ayat edit je ni)"
"memandangkan yang part2 last ni boleh dpt suami soleh...
senang cite gini..sape mkn bengkang ni, dpt doctor, ni bengkang cikgu TESL, ni bengkang engineer, dan ni beng.........."

belum sempat saya nak habiskan ayat saya tetiba satu sambaran sepantas kilat tetapi tidaklah sepantas Nabi naik Buroq, menyambar bengkang2 tersebut.
dan antara peserta bengkang yang terpantas adalah Aisyah..*tepukan gemuruh*

semua peserta lain sgt takjub dgn ketekadan Aisyah. *alhamdulillah*

Nadiah:
"eh,  tu bukan ke bengkang TESL?" *smbil menunjuk ke arah bengkang di tgn Aisyah*

Aisyah:
"eh, yeke...(muka kebingungan dgn senyuman manis masih di bibir)..mane ade..medic la"

(perbalahan tentang profession bengkang continue and continue)

saya y bingung dgn kejadian ini, terus mengorak langkah menuju ke jalan pulang..
hehe x x ..tu lagu halimatu saadiah.

saya pn berkata:
"xpelah..kesian medic xde org ambik...yang xde org nak ni, bia la sy ambik" *smbil mencapai bengkang Medic.*
"kesian bengkang medic......." *smbil ingin menyuakan bengkang bahagian perubatan itu ke mulut

tapiiiiiiiiiii

Wuuushhhhhh!!..

sekali lagi, sambaran sepantas kilat tapi bukan tunggangan Buroq semasa israq mikraj, melalui depan muka saya dan bagaikan aksi matrix, bengkang Medic saya dirampas dari tgn..

hanya tggal jari saya yang masih terpegun dgn aksi itu..

ternyata Aisyah sekali lagi mengulungi acara!!! *tepukan!*

Peserta2 lain yang masih bingung utk membuat pilihan tergamam terpegun dgn terbeliak mata dgn aksi itu...
*kami sgt kagum* dgn senyuman tipis di bibir.

Saya:
"apakah yang berlaku...erkk...!!"

*fast forward*

Ummi:
"ok nik..habeskan profession bengkang2 yang lain.. "sambil memotong satu bengkang lagi kepada dua.

saya *dgn perasaaan sedih setelah bengkang Medic dirampas*
"yang ni bengkang engineer yang ni bengkang ustaz, yang ni....."

SWUSHHHHH!!!!

semua tgn peserta lain berebut2 mengambil bengkang engineer.

kali ini, giliran saya tergamam..sgt aktif teman2 ku...-_-'

Ummi:
"xpelah..ayein amik la bengkang engineer..ummi amek bengkang ustaz.."

Saya:
"xpelah..aku amik bengkang ustaz 2 memandangkan bengkang medic dirampas"*menjeling ex-bengkang*

itulah kesah bengkang...hanya Mchen tidak menemui bengkang pilihan hati.mungkinkah masih tercari-cari?hehehheeh

moral of the story: selalu selalulah bersilaturrahim dgn housemates anda..pasti meriah dan riang jadi rumah itu...tp yang pastinya..dgn perkara2 baik sahaja..^^

p/s: cerita ini dikongsikan hanyalah suka suka sahaja kerana we had a great time laughing at what we were thinking about the bengkang.huhu!

p/s 2 : Best betul bila time tgh tggu mkanan jatuh ke dasar perut tu pn, ade housemates yang boleh bagi kita ilmu.:)

Rindu Norhasmira, Ummu Atikah dan Nadiah Samsudin

Friend equals to Fortune!

Assalamualaikum.

:D..heee~~ again..actually, i didnt plan to write today. since i think i have beautiful things to share today..then, y dont share..sharing is caring..but dont share false news..
that's not sharing, that's backstabbing *enuf of sarcasm syamimi. focus! focus!*

okayyyy...today, i went to ASDA with kak mira. (btw, ASDA is like Pantai Timur hypermarket..err..i've told u be4 right?.*

neway..bought few things *im lying*
and, on the way back, kak mira received a beautiful gift from Ayein..

(my ex roomate and my future housemate)

so, i decided why dunt i share something too with the people i love. one rule in "GIVING"..never hope for return. ikhlas k..ikhlas *pejam mata*

hopped into Ummi's house and gave her a box of cookies...:)
besides sharing cookies, it means...we also must share....

FATS! hahhahahha!LOL

*thumbs up*

you jump, i jump....

I'm fat..you've to be fat too...LOL

Titanic.what's an epic.

*flashback*

 Ummi: sorry pak cik, sy gemuk skit...

Pak cik pembuat kot: alaaaa..awak bukan gemuk, besar sikit aje...*hares pak cik*

oh..her name is Ummi..but Micheal called her Yumi.haha..

Then, when i was checking on Fiza's camera...found these..

totally forgot about this.

err..dunt misunderstand. they still like hot guys.:P

and it is not only two of them..they are triplets.well, u can say that if you name friendship as family.:D

err..okay, forgive them for their "prasantan"

LOL

these three... have an epic too. fighting, arguing....because of food..-_-'

and sulking..haha...but hey..that's friendship rite..people have their own epic.

arguing, triangle love (always happens even in friendship:P) back talking, but please..not backstabbing.

so, learn this backstabber...friendship can be bitter sometimes..but backstabbing is not bitter..it is a betrayal. 

London= Kota Bharu

Assalamualaikum..:)

safely arrived at London (Paddington) at 6.18 pm. This is my first time travelling to London alone. Thank God I have a tube map and also a rough map of Paddington Tube station whereabout from kak mira.

on the way to Plymouth train station, i snapped as many pictures as i could of everything which was interesting

she has longggg legs.

look! Rudolf!

Rudolf..can u fly?:p

hey, r u snapping my pic? snap it beautifully please~~ (posing)

-_-'

Plymouth

there were bubbles at this time. couldnt snap any

Fortunately, i was not late. took my tickets and off to platform 6..in the train, i typed two sentences for SBE reflection and 2 hours for entertaining myself with Cooking Academy games.:p Upon arrival, i texted my sis.

my sis was already at Paddington Tube station since she was from King Cross St.Pancras.

The first thing that popped into my head "ok, where the heaven is this tube station.urghh.."
What I hated most was the train station is so huge, with so many trains queuing.... I was dizzily trying to find the WAY OUT sign.

 and i was like:
"Is this Hogwart railway station." quite huge and messy.

Then, i decided to just follow the crowd and alhamdulillah i found the way out.
ok, the first landmark. HALAL KFC, SOUVENIR SHOP, SUBWAY,
(gggguuurrrppppppppp)-my stomach growled.ehehhee....hey, my last kfc meal was 3 months ago ok!

Checkmate! Paddington underground! (apesal nth saya ckp checkmate.hehe)
calling my sis "where r you.bla bla blaaaa..."

Ok, found her. off we went to Aldgate. and now, in a kind senior's house.:)
hope tomorrow's event gonna be fine.

saksikanlah filem anak itik pening cari reban:p

Yeah! at last we found it; London Metropolitan University)

When i was recording this, i saw a medium yellow piece of paper pasted at the bus stand, written, "Muhammad, the last prophet for human."

the moral value are:
-even though it is your first time to try out something (good), dunt look down on yourself. go for it!
-explore the world as the world is made for us to appreciate.
-i hope, those who do not have the chance to come here, more or less could imagine the situation in UK.
(London, for me, more or less like Kuala Lumpur)

(tibe2 saya rase, yang saya dah wat London tu macam KB. (contohnya: nak pergi lusa, pastu balik keesokan harinya. tiket beli bila? hari ni. -_-')

does not need 'years' to miss

Assalamualaikum

hokeh. I ve been typing and deleting for the past 15 minutes. dunt know what to write first. but one thing for sure, i miss my sister already.

am I mad???? pfffttt...
Ive never missed her like hell like i do now. well, before,  it took at least weeks to miss her.
now??
no need days no need weeks no need years. just need a couple of second while watching her train off to Sheffield.
*sigh*
 These three days were my greatest day in UK. :)

If Rasulullah was the one who came to visit me. i wonder what would i feel now?

i think i'll go crazy missing him.:)

Maybe that's how the 'sahabat' felt when Rasulullah passed away. or even more maybe?

I miss you Rasulullah

Ramadhan Spirit

hye! Assalamualaikum everybody.
haaaa...for this two weeks you gonna have a non -stop update of my blog.haha.^ ^
happy?? (thank youuu..huhuk)

This morning i woke up at 6.15 a.m.Poor granny. she could not have her sahur.:-(
 Well then, you must know the nature of old folks. sometimes, they are like children. Wants people to pamper them and fulfill their every wish.
Now you know how you acted back then during childhood. ^_^ ;p

I wanted to recall the spirit of ramadhan among my folk villagers back in 1998-2000 (as far as i remember)
Maybe some of you also experience the same.

Before this, my neighbours liked to visit houses. They chatted, exchanged stories (about husband, children, recepies)
During Ramadhan we loved to exchange dishes. Kak Dah gave us Kuih Mulu. Kak Pah gave us Gula Tempoyak and we would give gulai ayam or Kerang Rebus

However, I rarely see these now. Yesterday, I cooked Ikan Gulai Kuning for berbuka and there was some extra.

sekadar hiasan

So, I scooped some to be given to Abe Nik Mat (opposite to my house). On last Monday, I gave a bowl of Gulai Daging since there were extra.

sekadar hiasan

I wondered whether the spirit of exhanging dish has vanished..:??

and last night, K' Ana, Abe Nik Mat's wife, gave us langsat. 3 bowls of langsat (to give back our bowls)
my sis laughed at top of her lungs ( I wondered why)

Then, she sat in front of my granny presenting those bowls and took one langsat from each bowl and ate them.

She said:
Emmm..sedap daging goreng K'ana...Yang ni...emm..sedap Gulai ayam dia..Fuh!.hahaha

Then , I understood. She felt amused by the way K' Ana's attempt to repay our dishes. So bad of my sis.
But, I know. she was just kidding.:p

Today's Menu are:
Sup Ayam

sekadar hiasan

-saya punya xde kentang. tapi kalau saya letak, mesti ade org suh pos kt dia:)-

Daging paprik

sekadar hiasan

After some times, I realised that cooking is not solely about skill. It's about the ingredients that you put. If you campak bawan putih, bawang merah, lada, garam, perasa, gula, letak air sikit and kangkung. Ia dah jadi kangkung goreng

p/s: each day, i felt very lazy to recite Quran. what is happening to me. :(