Planning

"I dont know what to do. Suddenly, I'm blurred. What should I do. I'm not good enough. That's why I ended up like this"

"No, you are not. I've told u before. Writing an academic paper needs careful planning. How come you don't know what to write when you already have a plan? Rambling again and again that you were not able to do it, won't solve anything. The best thing to do is; find out the problem and try to come out with a solution. "

THIS...went straight into me.

Did I plan carefully? hmm...
Now u know.

Do we really love?

Assalamualaikum

it has been two months since I scribbled something in this blog. The last entry was last year and today I am in a new year. Indeed, time flies so fast these days. Sometimes, I am happy for that but at times, I feel scared.

Scared of the uncertainty.
The uncertainty of love, the uncertainty of the after life.

Recently, I read a status which goes something like this 'if we really love someone, we should make sure we can bring the person to Jannah'

Love, how we have abused one pure thing that He has given to us.
If we really love, we shouldn't be the reason for him/her to commit sins.
If we really want her to be ours, we should maintain the purity of the feeling.
Because, it is not now that we after for, it's the later. the day that we can call it as eternity.

Love, the thing that we take it lightly.
To kiss, is it love?
To embrace in arm, is that love?
Or to feel each other, is that love?
It may be the ways of showing love but not necessarily love.


Love is continuous affection
If we love mortal being but forget The One, is that love?
Love is true
If it cannot accept true advice, is that love?
Love is  care.
If it draws us near to the Fire, is that love?
I may have loved u, but do u really love me?

 The uncertainty of love. Do we really love?

ZACKMIMIEY

SAHABAT

Assalamualaikum,

Feel sorry to this blog. No inspiration is one thing, lazy is another thing that I couldn't avoid. Not that lazy as in LAZY, but lazy coz there were lots of things happened in my life lately and it caused laziness.

Does that make sense?
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*cricket*

owwwwkay, probably not :P

A misunderstanding happened today and it led to MORE misunderstandings. I was okay at first, but u know..lots of thinking changed thing from OK to NOT OK. :D

But today, it made me appreciate one thing. The friendship that I share with Farah Wahidah. Unlike other friends, Farah and I are truthful to one another (at least I know I did. :p). When we were housemates back then, I always went to her room or in the  kitchen and had a chat with her. I'd ask about her opinion of me. My weaknesses or anything that I did which hurt her. Then, she would tell me in the most gentle way and did not hurt me at all, other than appreciating her frankness, because it helps me to know myself and improve to the better.

Then, I'd tell hers. We did not only talk about our imperfections but also strengths. Of course, hearing compliments from her makes me appreciate myself even more and allow me to explore my strengths.
I think, she's the only person that I am totally totally totally able to be truly truly frank with coz she takes it positively and so do I. ummm I think, probably coz we can feel each other's sincerity? It's not that we were trying to fail one another...nahhhhh... (errr..right farah?:D)

"orang yang menunjukkan kebaikan kepada anda adalah sahabat yang baik. Dan orang yang menunjukkan kesalahan anda adalah sahabat yang paling baik"

I want you to know, I loved u even more when we did pillow talk back then. 

Rather than talking behind your back, I choose to tell you coz I know it hurts if you heard the same thing but from other people. 

hope u enjoyed the chocolate cake!

love u mate!^^

Of Usrah and Reflection

Assalamualaikum mortals.

I am writing my elective assignment and blog, listening to the youtube and, at the same time, occupying myself with twitter and facebook. dugh! Do we call that study? Kick me. Kick me, please. Wake me up.

Okay. of usrah and reflection.

I went for my usrah session yesterday at my naqibah's house in Plymstock. We discussed the nikmat from Allah and our attitutude towards it. However, I was more attracted to this phrase "Aku merindui sahabat sahabatku" than anything else.

 It was from Rasulullah. And when the sahabat said "we are here, ya Rasulullah". He replied "Aku merindui umatku yang tidak dapat melihatku tapi masih menjalankan ajaran agama Allah yang aku bawa". I was touched by that sentence.

The sentence is familiar and we hear it from different people, situation, events. Yet, it has that thing to melt our heart. However, I felt ashamed because he misses us but we keep forgetting him. :(

image from google

Manusia Yang Bersifat Nasia

Assalamualaikum mortals,

How's your morning (malaysians)? I have started my morning pretty good when I woke up at 5.32 am for subuh jemaah prayer with Ada. Alhamdulillah. This is not a long preach entry. A quick reflection.

 I planned to wear my usual blouse. (Sadly) Since I have to work this morning, I need to wear my work T shirt, just to show professionalism. Sadly,  the t shirt given to me is too small for my size though I've lose weight. It's a "S".

Usually, if I have work, I will wear jeans (since I don't have slack anymore)-to be comfortable moving around. I already had the jeans on me when suddenly I looked at the mirror and the reflection disappointed me. So, I changed to skirt which pretty impractical for an active day.

The same discussion I had with Kak Wani on the bus yesterday. About clothing and our personality. So, girls, check yourself before step out of your house. If the t shirt is a bit tight, wear long lose skirt and sweater. If the trousers are tight, wear a long lose blouse/shirt or t shirt and sweater. Sometimes, we forget or we don't notice. Thanks for reading!

sorry, halalkan ea gambar

So, I will look like this if I wear jeans today. (even though I wear sweater to cover)

Instead of trousers or jeans, I wear skirt today and sweater:)

Sorry, I am not practising vanity here. :) So, Pass?? Can I go out now?:)

Eda Mame (Doctors, read this!)

assalamualaikummm. (tiba tiba paksa doktor baca.LOL)

I just had my juadah berbuka. For the past 6 days, I had vegetables soup and rice for berbuka (I have to watch my diet coz of the rashes). But today, I dont feel like eating rice. A few days ago, I bought a packet of green soy bean after I watched Nina's video:

Actually, I've watched it many times. However, now only I decide to give it a try. I have no idea how it tastes and all that. My first impression about the taste (based on the look) is bitter. Okay, let's see its look.

the colour does say "I am bitter! try me if you have the gut!.haha. makan budak! *tibetibe*

I have no idea how to serve this vegetable. So, I googled. The article suggests a simple way to serve this vege which is boil and add some salt to it. These are my Soy bean! oh, in Japan, it is called eda mame (that explains the title ^^)

I still felt a bit unsure (whether to try it or not) even after it was boiled.

After the Azan, I tried one piece first. "Blimey!! this tastes good!" I said. So, I popped one after another into my mouth.huhu. It was fun to squeeze it and the beans went plop! into my mouth. :D I only boiled around 12 eda mames. But, with that toothsome taste, of course I boiled another! huhu. I boiled a lot of them and ate it like snack!

2nd round.huhu ^^

I've googled the benefits of green soybeans. Let's do a little bit of  reading:) 

#I've highlighted the main points to ease your reading (so sweet ^^)

• These green soybeans are a natural source of antioxidants and isoflavone

• Eating antioxidant-rich foods has been associated strengthening your immune system and with reducing your risk of cancer, hardening of the arteries and neurodegenerative diseases. Isoflavones are phytohormones that may help reduce prostate and breast cancer, diminish the risk of heart disease, lower blood pressure levels and ease menopausal symptoms. Women who are menopausal and have low estrogen levels may benefit from snacking on a handful of edamame daily because of the natural soybean's phytochemical quality

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• Protein

The fresh vegetable soybeans called edamame contain about 36 percent protein, which is 86 percent higher than mature soybeans. Edamame's low oil content, combined with its high protein content, makes this vegetable very popular with health-conscious people who want a low-fat, protein-rich snack. Vegetarians and vegans who want a high protein food will find that edamame's protein is complete, which means it contains all nine essential amino acids the human body needs. Protein helps your body's tissues to develop properly and helps your body resist diseases; it produces hormones, enzymes and other substances your body uses; gives people energy and helps prevent fatigue. Edamame has no cholesterol, very little saturated fat, and a half-cup serving provides 11 g of protein toward an average adult's daily requirement of 46 to 63 g.

• Vitamins And Minerals

Edamame is rich in vitamin C and B vitamins, and it is one of the few natural sources of vitamin E. These soybeans also provide you with minerals, such as calcium, manganese, iron, magnesium, phosphorus and copper. Nutrients in green soybeans that benefit heart health include vitamin K and folate, which increases the production of red blood cells. Folic acid is also essential for pregnant women because it helps with fetal development.

• Fiber

Adding edamame to your diet will help you increase your fiber intake. Fiber is important for healthy digestion, and a half cup of edamame contains 4 gr of fiber. Fiber also helps lower cholesterol, which may reduce your risk of heart disease. Another reason edamame is a good snack food is that the fiber keeps you feeling full for a longer period and this helps you avoid unhealthy between-meal snacks.

• Anti-Inflammatory Properties

Edmame has anti-inflammatory qualities and can be a good food to eat if you have arthritis or other inflammatory conditions, such as rheumatoid arthritis. Fresh green soybeans, eaten as a snack or a side dish, may help people with asthma, because this vegetable decreases inflammation in your breathing passages, and this can reduce wheezing and coughing.

Read more: http://www.livestrong.com/article/409591-the-health-benefits-of-edamame/#ixzz1WGWndvNL

In short:

*  helps reduce risk of heart disease;

*  improves bone health;

*  reduce the effects of PMS;

*  help reduce certain types of cancer.

If you have any friend who is a doctor, their comments might help to illuminate this fact.

Okay, that's all! Try this ya!:) Go healthy lifestyle!

p/s: rasa dia mcm kacang rebus. sedap!

The Awaited Month

25 July

That means only 6 days before the most awaiting month of all muslims, RAMADHAN
The time where all the canopies are opened and all the foods are there for you to point and pay
Days where money flows more than the usual day
All the clocks ring before 6 am in Malaysia while plus minus at other parts of the world
It also means overflow in most mosques

It is the month where people make promises to Him
With tears and regrets
Hoping for a second chance
Some are true while others are just fake
Trying to bribe Him with all the sunat doings
Remorse, is it only in Ramadhan?
To seek forgiveness, is it easy like pointing at those cakes and dishes, pay and settle?
Is that what you think?

After 30 days of pure moments,
Some will continue with the usual doings
Senile seems to be in everyone when they forget all the promises, tears and remorse.

Sigh. Me?

p/s: and why am I suddenly become so Shakespeare?

Hebatnya Perempuan

Assalamualaikum..

hebatnya perempuan. Hebatnya orang perempuan ni bukan pada kegagahan dia lawan orang gusti. tapi hebatnya orang perempuan ni pada kesabaran dia. nak tahu kenapa?

Sabarnya orang perempuan ni dalam mengikut tuntutan agama. Semua benda nk kena tutup. Tutup atas tutup bawah, labuhkan tepi. Kaki pun kena tutup. Kepala apatah lagi. Cuba kalau try orang lelaki pakai jubah, serban (ok lagi, terbuka), stoking HARI HARI. haaa....memang sabar kan orang perempuan ni. Tambah tambah pula dengan iklim khatulistiwa yang tidak pernah nak bagi diskaun. Fuh!. Panas panas. kagum dengan orang yang boleh pakai jubah tanpa merungut sedikit pun.:)

Yang tak tutup semua tu bukan lah tak hebat. Tapi orang putih kata fair performance.

Sabar lagi orang perempuan ni bila sampai part part perasaan. Orang perempuan ni senang sangat dimanipulasi perasaan mereka. Tambah tambah bab bab cinta. Selalu kan kita dengar perempuan kena tinggal dengan lelaki, sepak terajang dengan boy friend, gantung tak bertali, dera. Cer try lelaki ade orang mai luku kepala dia. Mau naik hangin satu badan. Kalau tak naik angin sekali pun, dia akan tumbuk orang tu. Paling lekeh kepal penumbuk tahan geram.

Kalau bab bab relationship, cuba kalau perempuan tu tak contact sehari tanpa bagi sebab, terus hantar mesej dan call berkoyan koyan.

"awak, apsal awk tak angkat ni. awak tak sayang saya ea?"

"dah best sangat la tu layan komen lelaki kan?"

"awak ni dah tak nak saya contact ke ape??"

Bila dah 10 mesej tak berjawab

"dah la! tak nak balas sudah!"

 Yang perempuan ni bila dah ada mesej bertangki macam tu, rela keluarkan hp senyap senyap, mesej bawah meja.

"I kat kelas la. ada usrah."

Bukan lah nak kata perempuan tak de buat macam tu. buat je. 5 mesej pertama akan minta maaf, 2 mesej kedua akan merajuk atau marah, 3 mesej last akan pujuk. Tapi kalau perempuan hantar mesej berkati kati, call berkilo kilo. Si lelaki boleh buat macam biasa je. Kalau perempuan, memang sah sah akan gelabah, terus nak mesej tak nak bagi pasangan dia risau/merajuk/marah etc. (cam feminist kan? tapi betul an? an?)

Sabarnya perempuan ni bila sampai bab rumah tangga. Tadi ada sebut kan pasal gantung tak bertali, dera dan sepak terajang. Bab gantung tak bertali la yang saya paling tak faham dulu kini dan mungkin akan datang. Apasal la dia nak tunggu orang yang dah pergi??? Sabarnya perempuan ni, walaupun orang lelaki tinggal dia tanpa pesan satu habuk pun, tapi dia setia menunggu. Cer tengok drama Nur Kasih. Sabar ke tak sabar Nur Amina tu? Bertahun tahun kena tinggal TANPA PESAN .

Cer kalau lelaki kena tinggal WITH PESAN lagi. (hangpa pergi la tengok cerita Anak Emak kat Malaysmoviefull. Bini dia cakap tu nak pergi rumah mak. Dah tak tentu arah.) So, sabar ke tak sabar?

Dulu, saya rasa perempuan ni agak tidak cerdik bila biarkan diri dia dipukul oleh suami. Tapi bila dah besar ni, dah tahu la kenapa. Satu sebab sayang, kedua sebab anak. Siapa yang nak berpisah dengan suami? Cuba habaq mai. Kalau bukan sebab konkrit sekonkrit bangunan Pisa (tak main dah KLCC sekarang.Eksen), memang tak de la perempuan nak mintak cerai  kan. Kalau boleh, sampai kena pukul lebam lebam macam kuali  pun still cakap "abang, mengucap bang."

Mak mana nak tengok anak hidup tanpa bapak. Cuba cakap. Nak nak time anak tanya, "Mak, where is my bapak. Everyone wish father's day. To whom, should I wish this?" (drama). Saya pun boleh nangis tengok drama camni walaupun saya ada papa. Yang tak de? nak cakap ape?

banyak lagi la contoh contoh yang nak disebut. tak cukup ni blogspot satu je. kena pinjam yang Zahirim Adzil sekali. sebab dia artis. jadi orang baca la. :p

Jadi, kesimpulan lepas saya berletiaq tak henti henti dari Assalamualaikum sampai p/s kejap lagi adalah "Girls are like flowers. To be appreciated not crumpled!"

Oh, lupa nak kabo, terinspirasi nok tulis benda ni sebab baca dari blog orang ni. tapi tak baca habes lagi. tak perasan ade "read more".kekekeke. SYED ALEP

p/s: orang lelaki pun sabar jugak. saja nak highlight orang perempuan. nak bagi motivasi suruh lepa ni kuat.:)

Kerana Mereka dan Aku Lupa

Assalamualaikum..
mood: tersedar

Ya Allah
setiap y Engkau pinta kami kerjakan,
tidak lain utk diri kami sendiri.
setiap apa y Engkau tegurkan
tidak lain tapi utk kesejahteraan kami

Ya Allah

kami sentiasa buta.

kami sentiasa tidak mengerti,

kami pnya rasa ingin membantah.

kadang kadang kami membuat helah.

Ya Allah

andai kami masih buta

celikkanlah kami.

andai begitu kejap pejamannya

cariklah kelopak mata ini walau dgn besi dari neraka sekalipn

Ya Allah 

andai kami masih tidak mengerti.

tegurlah kami

tempelaklah kami walau dgn sekuat ribut sekalipn.

Ya Allah 

jika kami membantah.

hukumlah kami.

jika kami membuat helah

ajarlah kami.

Agar kami sedar.

kesemua nikmat y kami lupa engkau berikan

boleh ditarik balik walau dalam 0.00000000000000000001 saat sekalipn.

Jadikanlah kami hambamu  y bersyukur.

Selamatkanlah ahli keluargaku ya Allah.

Jauhkanlah ibuku dari kesusahan dan kekafiran

Lapangkanlah dada ayahku

Celikkanlah hati adik adikku

Bimbinglah abang abangku.


AyAt MudahNya aDalah." Ya Allah, selamatkanlah ahli keluargaku dan lindungilah kami:)"

mimpi malam ini y membuatkan aku tersedar pada jam 4.10 pagi benar benar terkesan di hatiku. Seolah olah Allah mengajarku directly. Seolah olah dia membuka hijab masa hadapan tntg apa kemungkinan y terjadi pada keluargaku di masa hadapan sekiranya aku terus alpa.

TANGAN Y MEMBERI LEBIH BAIK DARI  TANGAN Y MENERIMA. 

murahkanlah rezekiku ya Allah agar aku lebih byk memberi dari menerima.amin

Istiqomah

Assalamualaikum.

The title itself has explained all. *then, should i close this entry?*:)
Bila tgk dunia hari ni, diri sendiri takut.. lemah lutut, blank fikiran, kalut hati..
bukan takut kpd dunia..tp takut kpd persiapan diri  y entah layak dipanggil persiapan atau tidak.

memang x mudah nak jadi baik. memang mudah nak buat jahat.

tapi biasalah.benda special bukan sng nak dpt. 

mana ada org dpt ikan yu or ikan paus kat sungai. betul x?

ujian kecil sahaja x mampu nak tempuh. sudah gagal. Lalu bagaimana ingin menempuh ujian y besar di saat Encik DJ dtg? (Dajal)

Tetapi, adakah apabila gagal sekali bermakna kita patut give up
"aku dah gagal, aku dah gagal. Allah xnak terima taubat aku. Baik aku jadi mcm dulu je."
Hamboooooiii, Senangnyeeeeeeeeeeeee. Sila bersangka baik dgn Allah ye. Kalau mcm ni la umat islam. Macam mana nk menang. Berperang dgn diri sndiri pn dah kalah. Macam mana nk memerangi musuh??

I'm not good in giving evidence of hadis or Quran. But, I've once heard that
"lebih baik buat sesuatu amal atau usaha baik y kecil secara berterusan dari membuat amal or usaha y besar namun tidak berlanjutan"

Analogi dia: Kalau seekor semut mengumpul sebiji entiiti gula (ape tu entiti? sy pn xtahu) y kecil itu atau serpihan-serpihan gula sahaja sebijik sehari, nescaya akan jadi byk.
Berbanding, seekor buaya y mndapatkan seketul daging y besar dan bersenang lenang dgn hasil dapatannya tanpa berusaha dah, kerana daging itu boleh habis dalam masa sehari atau setengah hari saja.

Jadi graf istiqomah kita mestilah ini macam

 

memperoleh bahan dari blog ENCIK INI

Kalau nak bercakap, memang panjang. tak cukup satu hamparan tanah nak mencatat. Tapi nak buat satu benda y kita cakap tu secara berterusan diibaratkan memikul satu dunia di atas bahu jemala patik wahai tuanku. kerana patik hamba y lemah dan baru ingin menguatkan diri.

p/s: kecewa dgn diri sendiri.

info info y lebih berilmiah, boleh dapat kat sini dan link y telah di tag

oh, lupa nak tambah. lagu ni saya dedikasikan utk semua y rasa GENGGAMANnya makin longgar. sbb ni la y saya cuba nak ingatkan diri saya selain dari lagu taubat seorang hamba pada entry lepas.. INGAT! fokus pada isinya, bukan melodi mahupun penyanyinya.

Susahnya

Assalamualaikum

Awaks tahu x betapa bimbangnya sayas sekarang ni.
hari hari (baru dua hari since last entry) y dilalui rasa sgt mencabar.
KENAPA?
sebab....
 kejap je. kejaaaaaap je...kalau biar mmg sgt sgt sgt kejap je hati ni, akan datang segala jenis bisikan, detikan, kataan yang entah dari manan pun x tahu la an.

Baiklah, mari kita mulakan sesi luahan rasa.

Kalau duduk ramai ramai, ok sikit. sebab masing masing saling berpesan pesan. tapi bila diam sikit, sorang2 dalam dunia sendiri. Mula la menerawang ke dunia sendiri. oh oh oh oh oh. susahhhhh.
Kalau diam menggelamun, diam tggu nak mata lelap, diam tggu nak loading browser, akan adalah fikiran imaginasi mmbayangkan makhluk lawan jenis. (eh, bkn fikir bkan2, awak ni. fikir cam biasa je)

*google punya ihsan*

Kalau je baca baca blog blog perempuan2 lawa y post entry 2/3 page penuh gambar dia, mula hati terdetik..."nak publish jugak gambar" (kau lawa ke?-_-')
Nak jugak pakai baju cam dier. Nak jugak kwn dgn lelaki cam dier. Nak juga itu. Nak juga ini! oh oh oh..susaaahnyeeee...

Kalau lepas smyg Maghrib, kalau solat sama sama, senang je capai Mathurat lalu baca sama sama. Tapi kalau smyg sorang sorang, mula la fikir dua kali darab 100 utk baca Mathurat.

"baca doa je lah"
"eh! xbley3!, baca Mathurat"
"alaaa...esok kan bley? boleh main internet trus pas doa kejap"
"aaaa...mana boleh..kena baca Mathurat"

oh oh oh..benda senang pon kena guna sekuat tenaga utk lawan.oh oh oh susaaahnyaaa...
Ini la akibatnya bila kau dah kotori apa yang Allah dah bagi dulu. Kau buang nikmat merasai 'syokkkkknyaaaaa beribadah' y Allah dah bagi dlu.

semua susah. buat dosa senang la ea? Mana ada org berjaya y berjaya dgn senangnya. Sultan Muhammad Fateh, Salahuddin Al Ayubi (sape ader citer pasal dia? nak pinjam), Nabi Muhammad. Senang ke? Kalau dah hati kata suka, syok...xde y susahnya. cintai Dia, maka akan cintalah semua tentangNya.

Demi jiwa serta penyempurnaan (ciptaan)nya
Allah telah mengilhamkan (jalan) kejahatan dan ketaqwaan.
Sungguh beruntung bagi y menyucikannya (jiwa)
Sungguh rugi bagi org Y MENGOTORINYA


As-Syams 91: 8-10

Semua ni terjadi sbb 'hati sakit'. Org sakit mmg la kena lawan penyakit dia kalau nak sihat. betul x?
Kenapa mesti biarkan minda terpengaruh dgn 'bakteria-bakteria' y dtg tu. Bukan setakat MINDSET penting, HEARTSETt pn penting. Ni x, henset je y dk pentingkan.

Bersusah dahulu, bersenang kemudian. Kalau kat akhirat nnti, kau nak tampal gambar kau kat satu dinding syurga pn tampal lahhhhhh..xde org kesaaaahh...(mood geram dgn diri sndiri)
Nak melawat Sultan Al Fateh kat kediaman dia di syurga nnti, (insyaAllah ahli syurga) kau pergilahhhhh....

 Jaga niat. Kita bukan nak berubah supaya nanti dpt suami/isteri soleh semata mata. atau dpt anak soleh semata mata atau dapat apa apa la kan. TAPI buat KERANA ALLAH. Bukan jadikan Allah sebagai medium utk dptkan bnda bnda tu. Tapi benda benda tu y perlu jadi medium utk kita dptkan Allah.
eh, betul ke?? kalau x betul, tegur ea? sy budak baru belajar.:)

*gambar xde kaitan sangat. just suka tgk dia.comel.

rindu tudung itu* :')

Aku tidak menciptakan jin dan manusia melainkan agar mereka beribadah kepadaku
 (Az Zariyat 51:56)

p/s: ni bukan artike agama ke apa. Just luahan hati saya y geram dgn diri sendiri. Kalau ada fakta fakta salah y sy tulis, tegur tegur la ye:)

Langkah

Assalamualaikum.

Kalau dulu, Rasulullah mulakan langkah dakwah secara sembunyi sebelum islam berkembang ke pelosok dunia.
Maka aku ( tak pe kan guna aku?) hari ini ingin mulakan langkah aku menuju Allah semula.

7 tahun dulu, aku diibaratkan berdiri di satu jalan utk menuju ke suatu tempat y indah. Aku tebas semua semak dan duri jahiliahku sepanjang utk ke sana. Setelah 4 tahun aku berjalan dan menebas. Aku leka, aku berhenti seketika dan terpandang keseronokan dunia y tidak aku nampak sepanjang aku menebas. Lalu, aku patah semula ke tmpat lama mengutip dan menikmati ke semua keseronokan tadi. Setelah 3 tahun, hampir separuh jalan aku sudah patah balik, aku dapati apa yang aku buat sia sia. Dan sekarang ketika aku ingin ke depan kembali, aku dapati terlalu byk semak semak jahiliah y perlu aku tebas semula.

Dalam pada aku menebas, dtg org org mgatakan pekerjaan aku sia sia. Segala jenis cubaan y boleh menggagalkan aku, memberhentikan aku, menarik aku utk berputus asa dan teruskan sahaja berjalan ke belakang. Malah kerap kali juga aku berfikir utk berhenti dan menoleh ke belakang. tetapi malam ini, aku terbaca blog akak ku, bekas housematesku, teman tersayangku ketika aku mula2 sampai ke UK.

Semangatnya yang berkobar kobar membakar semula arang-arang jahiliahku supaya menjadi api semangat y membara. Jadi aku mulakan dgn men delete semua entry2 ku yang entah ape ape. yang mempamerkan kelemahanku, keaibanku. Entry y mungkin aku tulis ketika terpengaruh dgn style2 gadis-gadis blogger kerap gunakan. Utk meraih populariti, utk dikenali, utk didekati.

Aku nak mulakan langkah baru. InsyaAllah tanpa menoleh lagi. Kalau aku menoleh, peganglah aku wahai teman. Sesungguhnya aku juga rindu utk berjumpa Rasulullah seperti Bilal bin Rabah. Aku juga ingin bertemu dgn Allah dalam keadaan y tidak memalukan. Amin ya Rab.

lagu yang plg aku suka buat masa ini.

Taubat seorang hamba.

Perempuan dan Hati

Assalamualaikum.

Hati dan perempuan...
well, i bet, u would say..."cliche topic. I can almost know what she will write"

Yes. you are right. You know what i will write and maybe u also know that it is most woman's biggest problem.
At least, i do.

Woman. soft hearted. easy to fall for sweet words. sweet promises. every sweet thing.
I am a woman. I also feel the same.
but why? why? and why?
kenapa kita tidak yakin dgn janji Allah. kenapa kita mesti ragui semua yang Dia dah ckp. yang dia dah janjikan.

mari kita tgk beberapa situasi.

SITUASI 1:

Anda seorang yang single dan available. (doesnt matter whether you've experienced couple or not)
A man praised you. "lawanye hari ni"
I bet, some of us would blush and forget. (yang tu ok)
but...what if...
when he praised, we blushed. we blushed sbb lelaki yang tegur kita lawa. kalau perempuan tegur rasa kembang jugak. tapi yang ni 4 times rasa kembang

Seketika lepas tu or beberapa hari selepas itu, tengah2 syok main facebook plak (yang pentg key point dia adalah SELEPAS ITU) anda teringat kembali komen dia..

Pak Syaiton: wei..dia tegur kau cantik. ko x rase ke dia mmg perhatikan kau.
Hati kita: hmm...entah2 dia mmg dah lame perhatikan aku.

Pak Syaiton: wehh..dia online weh....try ko tegur..mane tahu dia balas.kalau dia balas tu,mesti betul apa yang KITA teka.

*bermulalah satu perjalanan perkapelan*

Mungkin

SEHARUSNYA, KITA MENGUCAP ASTAGHFIRULLAH SEKIRANYA KITA RASA GEMBIRA LELAKI MENEGUR KITA CANTIK. 

SITUASI 2:

A girl had a man who she loved whole-heartedly.
They broke up since that man loved another girl or because of any crisis in relationship.
But then, ex dia ingin kembali men'stapler' semula cinta yang terkoyak itu menjadi satu.

Mungkin ada yang menerima.

tetapi.
tidak terfikirkah kita bahawa dia pernah meninggalkan kita kerana perempuan lain. namun kita tetap welcome dia di dalam hidup kita.
mengapa kita tidak ingat Allah yang dulunya tempat kita menangis dan mengadu ketika kekasih itu meninggalkan kita. Allah x pernah meninggalkan kita.. sentiasa ada menanti kita kembali ke pangkuanNya.

come on la bhai...dulu awak pernah nangis soksek2 sbb dia taw. xkan nk ambik balik...oh mayyynn..

taburan janji tidak akan menduakan tidak akan marah, etc

(courtesy of google)

SITUASI 3
A man told a girl that he loves her and wants her to be his lover then his wife. perempuan ini who once dah pernah ada kapel, tidak ingin mengulang perkara yang sama cuba sedaya upaya untuk menolaknya..apabila perasaan  sudah neutral, barangkali Allah ingin menguji sejauh mana kesetiaan dia padaNya, didatangkan another guy who confessed his love towards her. She's starting to rethink. because she is attracted to him and his easy going personality.

Sikit punya rockers ini mamat..

tp pmpuan tetap cair...kerak nasi tmbah air tetap lembut babuji..adeehh

u ni..u saje je buat i tertarik..i ni dah selalu dilema wanita..kesian kat i tawwww

Tetapi,
MENGAPA MESTI DIA 'RETHINK'...KALAU KEKASIH MANUSIA MINTA BUKTI CINTA, SESETENGAH PEREMPUAN TERUS MENGATAKAN CINTA SEPARUH MATINYA, SESETENGAH PULA MENGGADAIKAN MARUAH. SESETENGAH PULA SANGGUP MEMBERI DLM BENTUK KEBENDAAN. TETAPI, BILA ALLAH MEMINTA BUKTI KESETIAAN DIA PADANYA, HANYA DGN MENGEKALKAN NIAT DIA UTK MENOLAK MAKSIAT, DIA SUDAH MULA RAGU2 DGN KEYAKINANNYA TERHADAP ALLAH. MULA BERFIKIR, MUNGKIN LELAKI YANG DIA TERTARIK ITU, TIDAK AKAN DATANG LAGI DLM HIDUPNYA. BUKANKAH ALLAH SUDAH KATE, PEREMPUAN BAIK UTK LELAKI BAIK. SETIAP HAMBANYA MEMPUNYAI JODOH MASING2.

SEKIRANYA LELAKI YANG DIA TERTARIK ITU BELUM LAGI MEMPUNYAI CIRI-CIRI SOLEH, DIA SEHARUSNYA MENETAPKAN HATI PADA ALLAH KERANA SEKIRANYA LELAKI ITU SEMEMANGNYA JODOH DIA, LELAKI ITU JUGA MUNGKIN AKAN DICAMPAKKAN HIDAYAH UTK BERUBAH. DAN SEKIRANYA DIA BKN JODOH DIA, MUNGKIN ALLAH PUNYA CALON YANG LEBIH BAIK DARI ITU UTKNYA.



SITUASI 4:
a boy confessed to a girl (xkesah la dia dah kenal ke or x sblum ni)  about his love and said that he will meet the girl's parents. (which is good)

tetapi
SEANDAINYA DIA SUDAH BERITAHU NIAT ITU KEPADA PARENTS PEREMPUAN, KEMUDIANNYA DIA BERHUBUNG JUGA DGN PEREMPUAN ITU DAN BERMULALAH SESI MENG'AYAT-AYAT'...MAKA SAYA RASA SALAH. KERANA SUDAH MELALAIKAN PEREMPUAN ITU DAN DIA JUGA.

SEHARUSNYA, SEGALA APA YANG DIA INGIN KATAKAN KEPADA PEREMPUAN ITU, BOLEH MELALUI KELUARGA PEREMPUAN ITU DAN BIAR KELUARGA YANG MENYAMPAIKAN UPDATE2 TNTG LAMARAN ITU.

JADIKAN ALLAH SEBAGAI ORG TGH DALAM SOAL JODOH KITA. 

mungkin org katakan ini pemikiran kuno. tiada life. orthodox. berpura-pura baik.extreme dan sebagainya. Namun, org itu tidak sedar, mereka pn adalah hamba Allah. dan mengapa kita harus kesah dgn perkataan mereka sedangkan bukan mereka yang menentukan tempat duduk kita di akhirat kelak..KEHIDUPAN YANG KEKAL.

mahu yang mana?

NERAKA ATAU SYURGA? 

Senang cite...anggap je semua kawan buat masa ni. berkawan la. sampai masa, ade la tu. kalau xde kat dunia, yop kita pakat cop bidadara muda putih melepak seperti mutiara bertaburan mcm yang Allah cite dlm Al-insan. lagi mantop..ensem tu mera betiii....


p/s: hanyalah contoh sahaja. dan semua yang tertulis bukanlah jwpn kepada persoalan. sekadar monolog dalam diri saya sahaja.hehe.sori la entry panjang.marah kerr??? alololololo..:p

mood: fighting against desire.:) chaiyoK!!!

Kekasihku yang Memahami :')

Assalamualaikum.

today is thursday. so, what do u think the special about today?hehe
what? holiday?
yes..but nope.
shopping?
umm..kind of...but. nope.:P
give up?


ok, today......ummmm......Puasa sunat Khamis yukkkk!!!!

My lovely housemates agreed to make a small gathering for breaking the fast..isn't it lovely...Hope that everything gonna be owkay..
dah lame x jumpa muka muka cute itu kaaaaannnnnnn* baca 'kan' dgn sesengaunya, plis)


hari ini, bila berkumpul pagi pagi dgn housemates..I realise something...
Kekasih kita yang baik itu maha memahami...
dia anjurkan kita to be in group..

Why shud we be in group?
I can stand by my own...
maybe that's what some people think.
but today, i have felt it.
the sweetness of unity and mutual understanding.

kalau dulu, waking up in the morning for Subuh...it feels like  a burden..
what more..to recite mathurat.
Today, everything...felt so easy and interesting.

Mathurat yang dlu pernah terasa berat seperti menggalas seekor dinosaur yang baru sahaja memakan seekor gajah..*ok, exaggerate itu...*
bila ada kawan yang same2 buat..terasa senang dan seronok!

Solat itu bukan lah beban..tetapi masa rehat umat islam dari keletihan bekerja di dunia.^^
byk betul update dlm 2 3 hari ni kan?:P

hellowww..biasa la...Kekasih saya tu beri saya nafas setiap hari..dan beri saya akal dan ilham yang baik..maka, saya pn ade la bnda nk tulis..marah kerrrrrrrrrr  Dia sayang sy lebih?ahaks..!

p/s: tacing sudaaaaaaa..:P

From Top To Toe ^...._

Hye! Assalamualaikum...

I'm in the mood of shopping! but, i dare not to buy blouses, trousers or shirt that i find very pretty because It might not tally with the islamic criterias. hmmm...I am  quite worried to buy them. When i was in KL last week, I was like crazy when i saw pretty and gorgeous clothes hanging at the stall along the streets. It drives me mad! However, I bought one after considering a lot of things. It was a sleeveless blouse. ( wait, don't judge first.)

I bought it because, of course it is pretty (for me at least), it is a loose, simple and not tight blouse. It is a sleeveless blouse but i intend to wear it with a black cardigan. which will cover the exposed part.

So, today i'm still in the mood to talk about fashion and clothes. As a muslimah, it is very important for me to cover my aurah. Aurah is a very broad subject. It does not only cover the need of wearing 'jilbab' but also to make girls look less appealing to men (ok, is my language correct?) As we can see, there were many rape cases reported in the news (it scares me to death). Although it is hard to admit but girls have to admit that these phenomena happen because of the lack of attention in covering our aurah. And because of our selfishness, other innocent girls became the victims.

From the top, which is our head, we have to cover our hair, neck, and our chest. In surah Al-Ahzab (59):

"Dan hendaklah mereka menghulurkan kain kerudung ke dada mereka dan janganlah menampakkan perhiasan mereka"

"Perhiasan" can be a lot of things. It can be our dignity, our body or even our jewellry (I am not so good in explainantion. :p, so excuse me). So, our jilbab must cover basically three parts of our top. Our head, our neck and our chest.

Moving on to the body, I found a few hadiths and Quran verses about this.

Our clothes  must not exposed the shape of our body, the colour of our skin and not too attractive.

The jilbab that we put on helps a bit in covering our upper body and it must totally cover our hair-the shapes, the colour and etc. A hadith by Rasulullah S.A.W:

I can see the floor through it!:)

"Dua golongan yang termasuk dari kalangan ahli neraka yang tak pernah aku lihat iaitu yang pertama mereka yang memegang cemeti seperti ekor lembu (bentuk cemeti itu seperti ekor lembu yang berbulu-bulu dan berambut-rambut) dan mereka memukul manusia dengan cemeti tersebut. Yang kedua adalah perempuan memakai pakaian tetapi keadaanya umpama telanjang (ketat), dan perempuan ini berjalan sambil berlenggang lenggok dan sanggol rambutnya (ataupun sekarang ikatan rambutnya) umpama bonggol unta.Dan perempuan yang sebegini keadaanya tidak akan mencium bau syurga. Ketahuilah bau syurga sudah boleh diciumi dari jarak begini dan begini" [Hadith riwayat Muslim no. 2128]

Some women complain that their hair are naturally long and cannot avoid the buns. It is true. There are such cases. But, as a muslimah we must be smart. We need to try to lower the buns and make it less visible. Our complains have shown our ignorance and refusal to fullfill the requirement.

To Toe:
Women overlook this part. Even I do, sometimes, when I am in hurry. My lil sis asked my mom, why I always wear socks when I go out to town or to go somewhere. Because it is clear. Allah said that women can exposed nothing except their hands (is it palm? I'm not sure) and their face.

So, as you can see (read) in my entry, women have many but simple rules to abide. That's why they can have the 'Syurga' and also be in "Neraka" EASILY.

Although we, girls, might complain these and that, but we must remember that our journey in the world is the platform for the hereafter. So, never mind if we have to work extra hard because it is for our benefits then.

“Andaikata kamu benar-benar beriman, maka janganlah kamu lunak-lunakkan suara semasa berbicara. Nantinya orang-orang yang hatinya berpenyakit menjadi tamak. Justeru berbicaralah dengan perbicaraan yang maaruf” [al-Ahzaab 33: 32]

It is for you, you, you, you and me to decide which one we want to follow. Is it worth to put our hereafter's matter at stake for the sake of our lust?

p/s: sorry for the long entry and please comments if my entry offended your feeling:)
have a nice day!